They’ll never understand it like you do. Do you want to spend the rest of your life force feeding fully-throttled throats when they’ll never grasp the way you assemble those pieces left from addiction and mania? It’s not that they don’t care, it’s that they have their own lives to live and what you’ve been missing is experiencing a life well-lived where you are not exhausted and breathless at every turn. Understand yourself before the waves from other people’s minds erode the ground you walk on. It’s only your perception anyway.
You walk around with grief so deeply attached to your heart, it never has a chance to break free. It never has. And you don’t know why. You spent decades numbing the pain and half a decade resting from the blunt-force trauma that was your life.
You are at a crossroads. Now is the time to set aside the expectations of others, remove your guilt, forgive yourself, and prove to yourself, once and for all, that you are deserving of life, love and happiness. There is no better time than this, after years spent learning the ins and outs of recovery. Suit up with what feels right, those that keep you sane and make you feel whole, healthy and free.
There are no lessons you can impart to others at this time, except by example. Everyone’s cups are full, dear. It is your time to teach yourself how to live. Allow yourself to accept this challenge.