WIP – Niagara – Chapter 7.

It should be known that before you read this, if you choose to do so, that this book has already been written. I am just now putting it all together, piece by piece (each piece is from a different year, which absorbs completely different outcomes and is one of the reasons I find it hard…

Note to Self – Let Not One.

Allow yourself to climb from the darkness and embrace light. Let not one tell you when you are standing on sacred ground and have healed. Decades are enough dear, and it is now time to wipe away the dust and ashes, and to reveal the beauty in your scars that have healed over. You have…

Unfollow Me.

He escaped into freedom and we should have let him go because at the threshold of every door were ghosts of chaos just waiting to get in. And they were your demons. Residue wiped clean, I was attracted to what I knew … the path of least resistance. He could have been us, but he…

Show Business.

Was it my final “fuck you“? You’re the one who died, but now I’m the one missing from your page with no remnants left of memories for decades. It wasn’t a final farewell, but it was close. Feels better than saying goodbye to you. But there we were … You were doing so well. That’s…

Stigma. It Matters.

In all my years dealing with Mental Illness and Intellectual Disabilities, I have never once given up on those closest to me .. my Mother and Sister. Neither did my Father. And from a young age, it was instilled in me that when you make a promise or tell someone you love them through sickness…

Sacrifice.

Now that you’re gone maybe you know now that the look behind my eyes wasn’t intended to make you think I had something to hide. It was quite the opposite, as I had an entire Universe to show you but couldn’t find the words because I knew you weren’t listening and never would; not with…

Life Beyond Recovery.

 “Healers are Spiritual Warriors who have found the courage to defeat the darkness of their souls. Awakening and rising from the depths of their deepest fears, like a Phoenix rising from the ashes. Reborn with a wisdom and strength that creates a light that shines bright enough to help, encourage, and inspire others out of…

Let’s Face It.

Reflecting with new awareness – I find it funny how two men, who claimed to know me the best and were delusional enough to believe they could war it out and win me over with words and phrases like, “compromise’, “medication,” or better yet … “She’s difficult,” actually thought they won, when in reality, I…

Lizzy’s Cut.

They’ll never understand it like you do. Do you want to spend the rest of your life force feeding fully-throttled throats when they’ll never grasp the way you assemble those pieces left from addiction and mania? It’s not that they don’t care, it’s that they have their own lives to live and what you’ve been…